Based on 2 Cor. 12:9, 2 Sam. 22:33

*Let this God inspired writing, from His heart to yours, be a reminder that when you can no longer make it...Christ will replace your weakness, with His perfect strength.

In the late hour of the night, my soul wrestles within me. At one moment, I feel torn to keep following my God, while this thorn of affliction attempts to pull me in its direction. One moment, I'm striving to walk with God, while a force of darkness tries to overshadow me. It seems that no matter what is attempting to take me down at the time; there is also a feeling that something is holding me up and suspending me...far away from the pit of destruction...that Satan has awaiting me.
There was a time, when I would focus deeply on what was awaiting me below; but now through time, my eyes have been open to the truth; that there is something stronger than this affliction; that is attempting to pull me deeper into the pit it has awaiting me. In fact...it seems to be a love that never wants to let go...a love that is so deep; that it actually has become arms that have reached deep within my soul...to suspend me high above defeat. Even though the affliction is attempting to convince me that it has won out; I still remain standing and walking through life. The steps may have slowed down a bit, while the spirit has felt weaker; but somehow my soul continues to press on through the darkness, as it continues to search for a light that can lead this poor soul out of despair.
Many times, these small steps have wanted to stop for good...as they have traveled many painful miles through life; but this love I talk about doesn't seem to want to let go...for it keeps holding me up, while being the strength I need to keep pressing on...so I press on. 
This love that has kept me suspended above despair for many years, doesn't come from myself or any other; but rather, it comes from deep within the heart, where Jesus resides...for I have come to see that when I am weak; then He truly becomes strong...and the strength of my life...Amen!!