Hello everyone…and a “Happy Monday” to you! It’s so good to be back with you today…and even more…it’s good to have you back with me today, at “A New Day of New Hope Blog!” I pray that your day will be its best…and truly blessed, by a God who loves and cares for you so much!
This past weekend has been a cold and snowy one…one that makes a person feel like wrapping up in a blanket, with a good movie…and that is exactly what I did this weekend. The past two weeks have been very busy…very draining and tiresome; so I finally gave in and put everything to the side and rested…all weekend long.
One thing I came to see this weekend; is when we are at our lowest…totally drained and weak; that is when Satan seems to step in and work with our thoughts. Even though it’s been many years, since I was a child…and even though I went through counseling, for a life that was so painful and dysfunctional; Satan still seems to have a way of reaching into the past, to create an internal video within the thoughts, of moments that once were standing right before me.
I remember a time in my life, when my best friend was my bike. My friend would take me to places, where I felt free as a bird…and as my hair blew through the air…I felt so free, from the painful moments that had held me captive within my home.
One day, as I was riding my bike down a steep hill; my brakes gave way…and the steering wasn’t working right either. As I headed down the middle section of the hill…my younger brother was right in the middle of the road…working on his bike. I was screaming and asking him to move out of the way because my bike was out of control…but yet, he wouldn’t move. I don’t know if he thought I was joking or what…but before I knew it, I was running over his neck with my front tire.
After finally getting the bike to stop…I hurried up the hill, to see if he was alright…which he was; but little did I know that my dad had seen the whole thing. From there…I heard my dad yelling at me…to get in the house. I was in tears and even one of my neighbor friends walked up the driveway with me, to explain to my dad, as to what had happened; but he would not listen.
For many years, I blocked the remainder of this awful memory out of my mind…never really knowing what had taken place from there…that is, until recently. As the memory began to resurface, I came to see a picture of my dad beating me with a belt…and it was no ordinary spanking. Here, I was being beaten for a mistake…and sometimes memories like these aren’t easy to shake.
Today, you may wonder why I’m sharing something so personal with you. It’s because I’m bringing it to light…exposing the works of darkness in my life…and I’m praying that this moment will stop the flashbacks; that seem to be haunting my thoughts. In Ephesians 5:11, we read…“Take no part in the worthless deeds of evil and darkness; instead, expose them.” Throughout the past 20 years of my life…God has been slowly…but gently bringing the painful moments of the past to the surface. For some time, I couldn’t understand why He would allow me to remember such hurt and pain; that once took place in my life; but I’ve come to see that he is wanting these hidden memories of the past to be exposed; so Satan can’t have his way with them…and also, so I can continue to move forward in my life with Him.
No matter what we’ve faced or are facing in life; God is at work…gently removing the clutter that once controlled our lives…and even though we view these moments, as very painful times in our lives; God is seeing these moments as a cleaning process; so there can be more room within the heart for Him.
As you begin this brand new week…let God have complete control over your life. Even though some moments can seem harsh and even difficult to face; just know that God is working…to make all things new again…believe me, I know!
Well…I need to go for now; but I pray that you will have a very special day…filled with the loving presence of God! Take care…and I will hope to be with you again tomorrow! God bless!
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