Good evening everyone! I hope that you have had a good start to your week! Today has been a different kind of day for me…and I don’t always like to talk about my chronic pain; but I feel that maybe someone out there is going through a similar situation and could use a word of encouragement, so here goes…
After a rough night, of tossing from one side to the other…it was time for me to get up this morning and begin my day. As I put my feet on the floor, it was all I could do to steady these poor legs of mine and make it to the bathroom. I’ve had episodes of pain in my legs many times; but today seemed to be the very worse. In fact, I only did a few minor things online today and then I was down for the afternoon. Even as I’m writing you tonight…one leg is elevated, while the other is resting quietly on the bed.
You know…many times throughout my life, it’s not always been easy for me to understand the purpose behind the pain and many surgeries that I have had to face in my life. In fact…as I was talking with my husband this morning, I come to figure out that I have now been dealing with these legs for 50 years…out of 58 years of my life. Some days it can seem like a part of my life, since I have experienced these problems with my legs for so long. What started out to be a congenital problem from birth has now led me to a rod in my right leg, which never bends…to major arthritis and joint disease in the left leg. Through all of the pain and problems in my life, I still love Jesus with all my heart and I truly believe that He isn’t the One who has brought these problems into my life…only allowed them for a reason.
Through the many years of chronic problems, I have not only learned to lean on Him more but He has given me a different heart…one that truly cares for those who suffer in life. In fact, sometimes, I think that this heart of mine remains alive and humble, through the ongoing pain…because as I go through these difficult moments, my heart seems to remain at a level, where I can feel more in touch with those around me who hurt.
I have to admit that there are days like today, when the brain can no longer take the pain; but moments like these become a reminder to me; that these problems won’t go on forever because a time will come, when I will enter a new place, where God will wipe the final tear of pain from my eye…a time, when I will run again and enjoy life and be happy for all of eternity…and I don’t know about you; but this is the hope I cling to.
I think that if we could just see a glimpse of hope ahead of us; then the feelings of wanting to give up wouldn’t seem so overwhelming. One thing I know for sure…I have the best friend to turn to right now…One who can bring peace into these moments of pain and One who can strengthen these legs and cause me to stand, when my body is so weak.
You know…many times I have written; that we should praise God through our problems and allow these moments to become a weapon to bring evil to its knees; so tonight, I would like to praise God, for allowing me to walk…despite the pain and I would like to thank Him for the friendship we share during these difficult times and for the heart that He has truly given me. One thing I know for sure; is that Satan is listening and by now, I would say that these words of praise have brought him powerless to his knees…praise God!
Anyways…I would like to thank you for allowing me to vent tonight…and at the same time share my testimony…of all that God has truly taught me, throughout all of these difficult times! Like I’ve said before…I may not know you by name; but you will be in my prayers because I’m sure that many of you are going through a similar situation as mine.
If I could encourage you with one word tonight; that would be, to let you know that you are never alone, in what you may be going through. I guess that’s why I talk of my pain from time to time because we all need to know that we are not alone, during difficult times such as these.
Anyways…I need to go for now; but I thank God for the strength and the words that He has given me, to share with you tonight! May you all have a good night of rest and I pray that you will experience the presence of a loving God, as you begin a brand new day tomorrow!
Blessings on your night!
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