Today, as I was doing a short writing for my webpage… “Daily Hope for the Hurting Heart,” I was talking on how we can experience moments in our lives, when we actually become speechless before God. Seems like the pain or deep heartache we are experiencing at the time, has taken our breath away…along with the words; that just seem too painful to speak at the time.
As I was thinking on this…God was taking me back to a moment, when I had actually experienced this within my own life. As I stood in the shower…speechless, with no words to say…only tears from a deeply broken heart, I began to write…within the steam of a shower curtain… “Oh God, help me!” I would say that within minutes, God came and began to replace the brokenness of those painful moments, with a peace that began to calm the troubled waters from within.
You know…we don’t have to speak any formal language before God. Sometimes, we just need to shed a few tears and humbly relay a message to God…from our heart to His. One thing I know…when God sees our humble message…crying out for His help…He will come running to help us…so never give up!
Have you ever wondered why God longs for us to rejoice during the difficult times? I will never forget a time in my life, when I was all alone…recovering from one of many knee surgeries. That specific day, I had come to a place in my life, where I just couldn’t take anymore. As I looked up to a picture of Jesus; that we had hanging over a fireplace…I began to reach out to God, as I sobbed uncontrollably.
From there…God began to work with my heart and my thoughts, as He led me to several Bible verses, in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, and we read… “And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”
After reading these Bible verses…I looked up to the picture of Jesus on the wall and said…this just doesn’t make any sense to me. How can I rejoice, when I’m in so much pain? Little did I know at the time; that I had left the most important part of verse 9 out of my thoughts, which reads…“that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
I came to see that day; that when we can rejoice…through moments of suffering; then we are also sending God a message; that there is nothing that can bring us down, when there is a powerful God present…and what a privilege to experience the hand of a great and mighty God…resting upon us, which only allows our hearts to be lifted up, through moments of rejoicing.
Have you ever had a moment in your life, when you felt as though you were at rock bottom…with no hope of ever coming out of that moment? I went through a time in my life, when I couldn’t have felt any lower than what I felt at that moment. You see…I had collapsed emotionally, due to the memory that had surfaced, from a past sexual abuse. As I sat in a waiting area…outside my hospital room; I remember looking down to the tile on the floor…thinking to myself; this is the end of my life…I just can’t go on anymore. The nights became so full of pain from the past; that all I could do was walk up and down the hall, with tears streaming down my cheeks. Honestly…I don’t think that I could have felt any more hopeless; then what I felt at that time.
During the still and quiet moments, as I sat alone and thought about my life; God came to me, through the still small voice of His Spirit, to assure me that He would bring me through these hopeless moments; but due to the overwhelming heartache I was experiencing at the time…I just couldn’t believe it.
Today, as I have been thinking back to this time in my life; God led me to a Bible verse in Deuteronomy 31:8, which reads…“Don’t be afraid, for the Lord will go before you and will be with you; he will not fail nor forsake you.” I came to see through time; that even though I couldn’t take that first step back into life; God went before me and showed me that I could trust Him to be my close companion, for the difficult journey that stood before me. There were others who walked away; but not once did God fail me or forsake me.
You know…we can experience moments that hold no hope. As we look into the eye of our circumstance, we can feel as if we are at rock bottom…a place, where everything seems so impossible to get through…but may I encourage you today, to let God be your strength. Let Him lead the way and let Him do for you, as He has done for me. One thing I truly came to see through it all; is that no one could ever compare to my close friend…my companion for life…and most of all my God. Never give into what stands before you; but rather, take hold of the One, who will walk you out of these difficult times!
As I’m sitting here today…looking back on a life of so much pain and heartache…I think back to a time, when one knee surgery after another made me feel, as if I was in a world of my own. It seemed as though everyone I came in view with didn’t have the problems that I was facing at the time, which only made me feel, as if I was sitting on the sidelines of life, while everyone else passed me by and continued to live. Even to this day, it’s a different world that I live in…a world, where I fight battles with my heart and my health, as I choose to press on and encourage others in need…despite what Satan thinks.
Through it all, God has shown me that there will be times, when these moments of affliction will make us feel alone; but the good news that God has taught me…throughout these painful moments in my life; is that He will always be there. You see…it’s the circumstance that makes us feel so alone and abandoned in life, due to it being controlled by evil…but in John 14:18 we find hope, which reads… “No…I will not abandon you or leave you as orphans in the storm…I will come to you.”
The next time you feel abandoned by others…just know that God will always be there for you…and even though we live in these lonely moments…we are never alone, in this lonely world of affliction.
I remember a time, when I was recovering from one of the many knee surgeries; that I experienced throughout my life. At the time, I was having a down day and I was sick of the recovery…physical therapy and all the doctor appointments.
One day, as I sat on the floor…doing my exercises, for strengthening the leg; I looked up to a picture of Jesus; that we had hanging on the wall over the fireplace and I said to God… “You know what Lord…it’s bad enough that I have to go through all this misery; but it’s even worse, to feel so alone, during these hard times. I would say that within a few minutes, the phone rang and someone had called, just to see how I was doing and visit with me for a while. As I talked with them…I looked up to the picture over the fireplace and said under my breath… “Wow…that was fast!”
No matter what you face in your life, just remember…like Psalms 34:18a says… “The Lord is closest to the one with a broken heart.” Even though you may be experiencing, what seems to be more of the circumstance, at the time…God is there…believe me…I know!