Do we truly understand what God’s word can be for us…especially during the difficult times of life? Today, I would like to share two special Bible verses with you, from Isaiah 55:10-11…and we read… “The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth. They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry. 11 It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.”
When I was younger, I wasn’t much of a reader and I struggled in school, just to do the basics; but those times changed, as I went through some very hard times in my life. In fact…God’s word actually became a survival manual in my life…and I truly believe that I not only survived the pain and deep heartache in my life through Jesus Christ; but also through His word.
The Bible verses above are saying that just as the rain and snow produce water for the seed; so does God’s word produce much within our lives…and just think…wherever our hearts take hold of His word; these words will continue to produce and sustain us through the hard and difficult times of life.
Today, when I look at highlighted verses and ruffled up pages that are barely holding their own, within my Bible; I think back to a time, when those treasured words kept me pointed in the right direction and helped me to discover hope…and even more…saved my life!
No matter what you may be facing; let God’s word comfort your heart and allow each word to penetrate deep within the heart and become the true and lasting remedy, for whatever is ailing you right now!
We all need God in our lives but there’s always a time when we need Him even more…a time when we need to enter the presence of One, who can shelter us from the moments that tend to weaken and discourage us. Sometimes, I think I do my best writing, when I’m hurting. It’s as if my difficult moments take me down to a humbled place, where it’s just God and myself…a place where my heart not only connects with His words of wisdom but a place where His heart touches mine in a very special way, which is one of the best things that I have ever experienced in my life. To me, it’s as if a touch of heaven has come down and taken me away from the cares and problems of the present moment.
Today, as I’m sitting here in my office, I am seeking the presence of the best friend I’ve ever had. I’m learning more each day that I need my good friend every minute, hour and second of the day. As I sit here, I think back to the very special moments that He and I have spent together. As I reread quotes and thoughts that He has shared with my heart over the years, I have come to see them as a lifeline that has kept me safe and secure and completely connected to Him.
Today has been a trying day for me, as my health hasn’t been doing that well but despite the weak moments of pain and difficulty, I have come to see that these moments aren’t a time to give into the problem and allow it to win. Instead, I choose to rise above the pain and the difficult moments; that God may continue to reign triumphant in my life. When we can lay ourselves to the side, during the difficult times and continue to pursue God; then we have truly discovered a way to rise above despair; which in turn, allows our weaknesses to become strengthened, through a God that is great in might and power.
Even as I sit here today, I am amazed at the words that God is giving me to write you. To be honest with you…I almost decided to not write you today but there was something nudging me deep within and what amazes me the most, is how God can even speak to our hearts, during the weak moments of a day.
You know…we all have the same God living within us and He can work with you…just as He does with me but first, we must be willing to leave the wallowing hole of despair, to enter a place; where instead of communing with our problems, we begin to commune with God. When we choose to walk in this direction; then God will begin to fill our hearts…minds and spirits, with a special touch that will truly let us know that His presence is with us.
I think that one of the hardest things I’ve had to experience in my life…was what I saw, as the loss of life itself. There are different ways we can experience loss…like for instance…the loss of a loved one or the loss of material things, etc.; but the loss I experienced in my life, had at one time made me feel, as if I had lost everything, except for the breath that I breathed.
From a young age on up…it seemed like I just kept having things taken away from me…to the place, where I felt in a world of my own. As a young girl, I sat on the sidelines of life, while my siblings and friends ran and enjoyed a life that I was not allowed to experience, due to multiple knee surgeries and dislocations. Then, as I grew up…the chance of having children was taken away from me…and then the loss of my right knee, as now, I walk with a rod.
For many years, I questioned God, as to why my life was headed in a direction of heartache and loss…and one day, He led me to a Bible verse in Matthew 10:39, which reads…“He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it.”
As I look back on those painful moments in my life; I no longer feel, what I felt at that time because I have truly come to understand this verse…and not only understand it; but live it; for God was allowing each moment of loss, to be filled with Himself; that I may find the life that He had planned for me, since the day I was born.
Any kind of loss we experience can be a very painful time in our lives; but when we look beyond the loss…we come to see that God isn’t allowing us to lose out on life completely; but rather, He is allowing us to find Him and all He longs for us to experience in this life…so never allow loss to defeat you and cause you to lose out on life itself!
As I was thumbing my way through the Psalms today, I came across a chapter that I used to read quite often, while going through the worst of my past pain and heartache…and I would like to start out, by reading Psalm 13:1, which says… “How long wilt thou forget me, O Lord? for ever? how long wilt thou hide they face from me?”
I will tell you one thing…this was my verse at one time and I could clearly relate to David, in every part of this verse…because there were many moments, when I would cry out to God and say… “Oh God…how long will you forget me and hide your face from me?”
I think we all experience these thoughts, while facing a difficult time in our lives. These overwhelming moments definitely have a way of not only making us feel alone…but forgotten and abandoned by God.
Overtime, I came to see that God had never abandoned me; but rather, I had separated myself from Him, by becoming deeply involved with my problems. It seemed like when I was desperate…I would cry out and beg for His help…but at the moment, when I felt nothing…that is when I would only give in and turn back to the problem.
Now is the time, when we need to come to a place, where we can truly say… “But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me.” Psalm 13:5-6 When we can react to our circumstances in this way; then we are also truly placing our trust in God…and no matter what attempts to take us down; we will always have the full assurance…that in God’s timing, He will walk us out of these moments of distress, which will help us to keep pursuing and moving forward, rather than turning back once more to the problem.
As a young teenager, I felt as if I lived in a world of my own. The home I grew up in was dysfunctional and many times, I would find myself…with arms folded, in the windowsill of my bedroom…just looking out into thin air…not even knowing what I was looking at. Over time, I began to look into God’s word...with a heart that seemed desperate, for any piece of hope that I could hold tightly to.
One day, as I was thumbing my way through God’s word; I was led to a Bible verse in Philippians 3:8, which reads…“Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,”
At that young of an age, I never really understood that verse; but later, as I became an adult; I not only came to understand this verse; but also live it. As each painful moment came and as each loving desire left, God was taking all the brokenness in my life, and He was piecing it together, so I could have the heart that He desired...a heart that could understand and care for others who live in despair.
Many times, we wonder why God allows us to go through these overwhelming times in our lives…just as I experienced, as a young girl; but now as I look back on my life; I see the reason, for each loss and painful moment…and that was so I could have the heart that would be needed for this ministry.
One thing I truly came to see, during this long and drawn out time in my life; is that God never leaves an empty space in our hearts…for He’s just moving things around and taking out what isn’t good for us; that He may fill it with more of Himself…so never give up on God!
One thing I truly enjoy about writing; is that when I write, I am in the presence of One that holds so much power and wisdom and when I listen for His voice within my spirit, rather than trying to put my own words together; then His words become words of hope that can touch and heal a hurting soul.
Some of you may not know this but my gift for writing came over 16 years ago. After coming through many days of pain and heartache, a day came, when I began to feel a very special touch from God. It was as if my heart had been brought down to a different level, where I could feel and experience things around me, in a much deeper way. When I get alone with God and open myself up to Him; that is when His words begin to ring loud and clear within my thoughts.
So many times, we go through long periods of pain or heartache and feel as though these moments will never serve any great purpose in life but I have come to see, through a lifetime of brokenness that when I open myself up to God; it’s amazing how God can use these broken moments, to not only minister to myself but to others around me.
For the longest time, I have come to see that the word “disabled” doesn’t mean “not able” in God’s vocabulary. When we can give someone a reassuring smile, while we are facing our own pain; then God is being seen. When we can rise above our own problem to reach out and help someone else in need; then God is being seen. So many times, we fall prey to our problems, rather than allowing God to work through the problem, which only leads us to a place of needless suffering. When we can allow our weaknesses to reveal a strength that isn’t normally seen in this world; then we are allowing others to experience a strong God, which in turn, will open up an opportunity for them to reach out to a God, who can work in their life too.
Waiting for God to work is not always easy. In our human mind, we want Him to work right away; so why doesn’t He respond, right at the moment we need Him? In Psalm 40:1-3, it says…“I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. (2) He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. (3)He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.”
As I look back on my life, I wish that I would have sought God’s purpose more in my life, rather than just focusing on every little detail of the problem…because this could have saved me a lot of needless suffering. Even though I knew God at the time; I hadn’t quite learned to connect with Him and stay in sync with Him. I guess that this is one of the reasons why we go through these struggles…so we can truly see how much we need God in our lives.
Doesn’t it seem that all we think about, during a difficult situation; is to just be free from these moments? I know that this was a lot of what I thought about at the time too. Our minds seem to be more intrigued with a way out, rather than finding the reason or purpose for such moments but we must remember that God never allows anything to enter our lives, unless He can use it for His benefit and for ours…and as time went by; this is what I truly came to see!
A difficult situation can make us feel as though we are stuck in the mud, with no way out. We can feel as though we are slowly sinking in the quick sand of our problems, while we panic at where we are headed with the problem, rather than where God is leading us. If we can remember that God can NEVER be defeated, then hope will rise up within us and help us to focus on His purpose for this difficult moment that we may be experiencing at the time.
No matter what may come our way, we have to believe with God…that all things bad will come to an end and as God exchanges our weakness for Himself and His great power; then we will not only view Him at work in our lives but others will begin to view the power of a great and mighty God too.
One thing I truly believe; is that no matter what God allows into our lives; He will always use it, so that He can be seen…and this is the hope that I came to see and experience, as I began to walk in sync with God, rather than my problems.
You know…I have come to see; that the only way we are going to be able to disconnect ourselves from a problem…to reconnect ourselves with God, is to experience moments of weakness; that He may rise up in the place of our weakness, while displaying the greatest power ever known to man.
One thing I came to see, while facing the fiercest storms in my life; is that God does give us a choice, as to whether we will brave the blunt of these storms alone…or whether we will choose to take shelter, under His almighty wings.
One of the old hymns that always seemed to stick with me…through every moment of pain and deep heartache; is titled… “The Haven of Rest”…and a few of the lyrics go like this… “My soul in sad exile was out on life’s sea, so burdened with sin and distressed, till I heard a sweet voice, saying, “Make Me your choice”; and I entered the “Haven of Rest”! I’ve anchored my soul in the “Haven of Rest,” I’ll sail the wide seas no more; the tempest may sweep over wild, stormy, deep, but in Jesus I’m safe evermore.” I will never forget the storms that raged around me in my life; but even more…I will never forget the One, who came and held my hand and sheltered me from the storm.
One thing I came to see, during these very difficult times in my life; was that we can find ourselves seeking refuge in a broken down circumstance, just by the way we respond to the problem; but as I quickly came to see…that only makes us vulnerable to the blunt of a raging storm.
In Psalm 32:7, we read… “Thou art my hiding place; thou shalt preserve me from trouble; thou shalt compass me about with songs of deliverance. Selah.” I don’t know about you; but I would rather allow God to be my hiding place, while facing a difficult storm…for I have come to see that He not only gives us shelter from the storm; but He does keep us from further problems that could result from the storm, while surrounding us with songs of victory, rather than defeat!
Lately, I have been facing some difficult times with my health. It seems like Satan is always attempting to weaken me and take me out of commission with God; but one thing God has shown me through it all…and that is to not focus on how difficult life may seem; but rather, to focus on the strength that continually keeps us standing, during these difficult times.
There is one verse in the Bible that we all seem to know and have probably memorized and that is Philippians 4:13, which reads… “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” You know…it’s so easy to memorize this verse; but have we truly lived this verse? In other words…do we truly know what it’s like to be able to do anything, on the strength of a powerful God?
Lately…through the struggling moments of chronic pain and illness; I have truly come to see how my God’s strength is holding me up and suspending me above the pit of destruction that Satan is attempting to place me in. Satan may be attempting to convince me that life is only going to get worse; but when I experience a strength that I have never experienced before; then I am reminded by God; that He will never let me fall into that pit of destruction.
How is it; that we focus so tightly on what is taking place in our lives, rather than what God can do, to help us, during these difficult times? We say that we believe in a strong and powerful God; but are we allowing Him to be all of that and more in our lives?
No matter what we face…and no matter how difficult it may seem; there is a strength and power that is definitely greater than this so-called strength; that stems from a weak circumstance…and the only way that we are going to experience this strength that can go way beyond any weakness; is when we choose to truly believe in the strength and power, of a great and mighty God!
After the memory, of a past sexual abuse had surfaced…one of the things that I had a very difficult time with; was trying to understand, why God wasn’t there to protect me from the abuse. That question seemed to haunt me for a long time, until God led me to a Bible verse in Isaiah 54:7, which reads… “For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee.”
One thing I came to see over time; is that people make choices and sometimes those choices aren’t always the right choice; so when a person’s own desires lead to sin; then God sometimes allows these moments to be used; so in the end, we can experience His great love and mercy… in a way; that not only helps us; but also may be used to help others, who face similar situations…and this is exactly what God did for me.
When I think on this Bible verse in Isaiah 54:7…I also think back to a time, when Jesus was hanging on the cross…and as He suffered greatly…I believe that His Father must have had to turn His head, for one moment of satisfaction. Knowing the great love that God had for His Son; I can’t begin to imagine how tempting it could have been to take Him off the cross…but for that one moment of satisfaction; much was accomplished and the world came to truly experience His love and forgiveness.
You know…it’s so easy to become caught up in the questions “why”; that we completely bypass the purpose, for which God may allow these difficult moments into our lives. One thing that I have truly learned and come to see, through a hard life of pain and heartache; is that God never allows anything to enter our lives, unless He has a purpose and a plan behind it. Always know that God has control…even when we don’t understand why.