Hello everyone and a big welcome to Moments Spent with God…through the Risen Hope Ministries! I am so glad that you stopped by for a visit today and my prayer is that we will focus more on where God is leading us in life, rather than where our problems are attempting to take us.
Yesterday was a very special day for me…as it was my 58th birthday. Some may think on their birthday, as a time when they are getting older; but that wasn’t what I was experiencing yesterday. You see…I’ve been on a long journey with God, for about 53 years of my life…that is, since all the deep embedded problems of my past began.
The Lord and I have walked through at least 21 painful knee surgeries…chronic pain, which I still live with to this day and long years of counseling, for a sexual abuse and dysfunctional home life. To this day, I live with a rod in my right leg…which will never bend and another leg that is deteriorating. Along with all of this, I experienced great loss in my life…including the loss of children.
You know…while I walked down these difficult paths, I couldn’t understand what was happening with my life. In fact, there were moments, when I felt as though God had walked away from me and abandoned me completely. There were even many years, when I couldn’t celebrate life or my birthday because these moments were only a reminder to me, of all the pain and deep heartache that I had experienced in my life.
Today, I have come to the place in my life, where I have had family members walk away and there are even times, when all I feel I have left within me; is the breath I breathe. I remember times, when I would allow moments like these to greatly affect me; but this year has been so different because you see…God has shown me something new. I have lost pretty much everything in my life…but I’m not abandoned or alone because during the moments of loss; a great and mighty God rose up within me and made my life complete.
This year, I have come to see that there may be times, when God steps in and empties us of ourselves, so He can move in and work in ways that we could never accomplish on our own. This has been a very special birthday this year because I’m no longer walking this journey, with the pain and heartache of the past…but I’m walking down this path, with a God whom I love very much! You see…God has become my everything…for He is the air I breathe…the words I speak and write…and the feelings that I now feel within me, come from a heart that is no longer mine…but a heart that belongs to God. In other words…I have lost it all, to find everything!
Today, I can say; that this painful journey of the past has been completed and now I strive to walk a different path with God…one that will not only keep leading me closer and closer to Him; but a journey that will open up new paths for me to discover and walk down, as I serve God, through the painful moments of my past.
No matter what you’re going through…I can say today; that I truly understand and I can also say that a time will come, when all these painful moments will be exchanged, for something brand new. Believe me when I say…that I know how the journey can feel at times; but never give up and never give in. Look to God and He will walk you through these difficult times…and in the end, you will see what God truly longed to give you, through these painful moments of affliction.
May God always be close to you and may you always feel His loving presence in your life each day!
Blessings on your day!
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