Hello everyone and welcome back to Moments Spent with God! I pray that your day is going well and that you will truly feel the loving touch of God upon your life today!
Yesterday was kind of a different day for me because God and I were traveling back to a time, when I had lost so much within my life. Even to this day, I continue to experience more loss in my life but I have come to see that my loss is only an opportunity to experience His gain.
After my morning schedule yesterday, I came out of my office and asked my husband Keith, to come and have a talk with me. God had really been working with me throughout the morning and I wanted to share my heart and thoughts with him and so we went out into the living room and with tears streaming down my face, I began to look back to a life that became a life of my own.
I will never forget the years of growing up in a very dysfunctional home. When I was younger, my bike became my best friend because many of my friends walked away, due to all the health issues and surgeries I was experiencing, from time to time.
Anyways…I loved my bike because this became a time, when I could leave my heartache behind and be free. With the wind blowing through my hair, I began to feel unattached from the pain I was experiencing at the time; but then one day came, when the doctors said… “No more bike.” My heart was crushed and as I watched someone else drive away with my best friend, I began to lose hope; thinking that I would never be able to experience that feeling of freedom again.
Later in life, more loss came and I began to feel that I would never experience the things I had dreamed about in my life. Life became more difficult…that is, until God began to show me that He had a plan…a plan to detach me from everything of my own choosing, so He could fill those empty voids in my life with Himself.
Now I as sit here before you, I can say that I have been completely emptied of all my own desires, as I remain completely connected with God. God has become my everything and it’s Him that I will serve for the remainder of my life. He has now made me His own…a daughter of the Most High God.
How is it that we allow loss to make us feel defeated, as though we have been lead over a cliff to total destruction? Don’t we realize that loss actually becomes the greatest way of experiencing God even more in our lives? One thing though…we have to be willing to let go, so God can have His way. If we are more attached to the things in this life, we will soon find that we only experience a temporary peace and happiness.
Today, I guess I just wanted to share my heart with you and the very special moments that God and I have shared together this week. Even though everything I had ever dreamed of is gone, I have found an everlasting freedom and that came about, when I laid my whole self before the feet of Jesus. When I was willing to quit focusing on all the loss in my life and allow these moments to become a sacrificial moment before God; that is when my life became complete. Now, as I look back, I don’t need the things that once made me feel free and alive because now I have everything I need.
Have a great day with God!
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