You know...one day I was looking at a picture of myself, when I was close to two years old and as I looked into the eyes of young Diane, I never knew that she would grow up in a dysfunctional home...and I never knew that she would be sexually abused as a young girl, by her grandfather...and I never knew that she would have to face a series of 21 knee surgeries...plus the loss of so much, including children...but God did.
Today, as I was struggling with some emotions of the past...the one thing that came to my thoughts, was how God has ALWAYS been there for me...even when I didn't know He was there...and I can say one thing for sure...if He wouldn't have been there...I wouldn't be here today.
Sometimes our hearts can get so caught up in the pain of the past...or even in the present moments; that we find ourselves completely bypassing how we made it through, from one day to another...and who was the One who carried us through each painful moment.
One thing I've struggled with in my life...is trusting others; but one thing I can say for sure tonight; is that there is One whom I can trust with my life and that is God. No matter how difficult it's been...or no matter how many times I tried to push God out of my life...He remained faithful...and even to this day; He is the One who continues to carry me through the moments that can attempt to take me back, into the haunting memories of the past. I LOVE YOU LORD!!