Sometimes it’s not always easy to stand still and trust God, during the worst of times. The symptoms of this enormous problem called the Coronavirus can make us believe that we are only headed in the direction of the very worst. As we see people suffering and jobs lost, we begin to wonder where God is.
As I’ve been sitting here…waiting on God, as to what He would have me share with you today; the first thing that He placed upon my mind and heart, was to tell you that He hasn’t forgotten anyone and that He loves us all very much. I know that moments such as these can attempt to convince us that we have been forgotten and abandoned; but one thing God laid upon my heart today; is that He is moving in our lives, even though we may not feel a thing.
One thing I’ve come to see and experience within my own life; is how a circumstance can actually seem like the “new norm.” While facing surgery after surgery, while at the same time experiencing counseling for a past sexual abuse; these moments seemed to have no end in sight…to the place where I felt that this is what life would be for me. I remember asking God many times, as to why He created me, if all I was going to experience in life were these down moments of pain and deep heartache.
Through time, I did come to see that God was in the shadows of my despair…working overtime, to heal and mend my broken life. The only thing is that it had to be His way and in His time…in order that His will may be accomplished within my life.
As I look back on my life, I remember many times when the journey became long and discouraging. In fact, I had actually come to a place in my life, where I was on the edge of accepting a life that would never experience the sunlight of God’s presence again…that was until my husband and I had planned to take a trip home and deal with the sexual abuse that I had experienced, at the age of 5 years old.
As we began our journey back…2500 miles, to the place where I was raised; I found myself looking out the window a lot…trying to keep my mind a little distracted from what I was about to face…and you know what…every time I looked out the window of our vehicle, the sun seemed to be following me. Whether it was a blue sky or a cloudy day; it seemed as if the sun was right beside me… following me all the way home. Through that journey home, I came to see that even though I couldn’t feel the presence of God, in the midst of what seemed impossible to live with…He was there…following me, even behind the clouds and the darkest moments of despair.
Now as I think on the Coronavirus…I’m sure that we all are feeling as if this is what life has now become; but may I encourage you today; that even if we can’t feel God’s presence, in the midst of what seems impossible to live with; that He is there in the shadows of our despair…working with all that concerns us.
You know…I have truly come to see that safety from a circumstance isn’t found in the absence of danger; but rather safety is found in the presence of God. In other words…the virus doesn’t have to be removed from our presence, just so we can know that everything will be alright; but instead, it’s knowing that God is right there, in the midst of our despair…working to help us through these difficult times.
Many blessings on your day!
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