Good evening, to all you late nighters! I guess I'm not the only one still up. I don't know what it is...but I just love writing in the evening! Maybe it's because it's so quiet and peaceful...but I think I like writing at night because it relaxes me and helps me to connect with God...before going to bed.
Anyways...I've been trying to take a little more time lately, to read God's word...as sometimes the day can get so busy; that before I know it...there seems to be no time. One thing I love to do; is to allow God to lead me to a verse or two...one that I can dissect and take apart...and sink deeply into. You know...it's good to read several chapters in the Bible...but I have found that it's even more important to walk away with something...something that can turn the heart around in God's direction, rather than our own.
Tonight, as I've been sitting here...listening to some music; God led me to a Bible verse that I remember reading as a teenager. I don't think I understood it then, as I do now; but for some reason it struck a cord with my heart...and this verse is found in Matthew 10:39, which reads... "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."
I have truly lived this Bible verse...I can tell you that much! Through the many years of my life...I went through great loss...never really knowing why I seemed to experience more loss than some around me. It seemed that everything that meant so much to me was taken away. For instance...I will never forget the time...when as a young girl, I had to sell my bike. To some...this may not appear to be a great loss; but for me it was. I was having so many problems with my knees at the time; that the doctor finally told me...no more bike riding. My heart was crushed, as that bike became my best friend. As I seemed to sit on the sidelines of life...due to my knees...this friend of mine would take me places...where I felt free and alive. As my hair would blow in the wind...those moments became a time, when I could escape the hurt of a dysfunctional home life.
From there....I experienced other losses...like not being able to ice skate or play tennis...which I loved...and then as I grew up, I lost the chance of having children, due to an early hysterectomy and endometriosis.
For quite some time, I questioned God...with a heart that seemed so broken...a heart that lived in a world of it's own; but later, I came to see that each loss was being replaced with God's loving presence...and as I gained more of Him...I truly began to find the real purpose for living.
You know...I think that loss can be one of the most difficult things to go through...but when we can open ourselves up to God and what He may be doing through that loss; that is when we truly find life...for what it was meant to be.
As I sit here tonight...and look back on my life...I now rejoice. The tears of the past have been bottled up...and now new life springs up within me...the life that God had purposed just for me, since the day He created me.
No matter what you lose out on in life...don't think of it as defeat. Instead...think of it this way; God is making room for something better. Tonight, I pray that you will come to see the hard and discouraging moments in your life, as a new beginning...one that God has purposed just for you!
Tonight, I praise God that He has control of my life...what a God! Well...have a great night...and may God truly bless your heart with His! Goodnight everyone!
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