Wednesday...July 29, 2020 | My Life's Journey (Part Three)

​Hello everyone…and a very happy Wednesday to you all! I hope that you are enjoying a beautiful summer day…and that even more, you will come to experience a power in your life like no other…a power that only comes from Jesus Christ our Lord…Amen!!
As I’ve been sitting here this afternoon…thinking on what God would have me share with you, as I prepare to press on and enter another new year of life; He began to open up a part of my life…and I would have to say that this was one of the most difficult times I’ve ever walked through; but at the same time, it was one of those moments, when I had truly experienced the wonder working power of God in my life.
As some of you may already know, I came to a time in my life, when I had truly fallen down to nothing emotionally. In fact…I was so far deep into depression; that I even found it very difficult to make a bed…or just do a daily routine around the house.
One day, as I continued to go deeper into these difficult moments of despair, I had decided to call up my Christian counselor and talk with him; but he wasn’t available at the time. I was so tired and drained from the depression that was attempting to take over my life; that the counselors secretary thought that I might have taken some pills and was attempting to commit suicide, which wasn’t the truth. Little did I know that God was once more heading me in a different direction; that would eventually be used to help me out of the depressing memories of the past.  
After hanging up the phone…I would say that within minutes, there was the sound of many sirens…and from there, a knock came at the door. As I answered the door, it was a policeman…and the moment I saw what was taking place outside my door, I fell down and began to sob uncontrollably. Within an hour or two, I found myself being taken to a local medical hospital. From there, I was admitted and checked by a doctor…and several blood tests were taken. The doctors found that due to a long stretch of depression…the fluid around my brain wasn’t enough to keep the brain functioning right; so I was placed on medication and was kept at the hospital for two weeks.
While I was in the hospital, I was assigned to several counselors…and the only one that was allowed to call me or visit was Keith, due to some of my problems being related to my family.
After being in the hospital for several days or so, I was given the option to get involved in an exercise class or a craft class. Since my legs weren’t doing well at the time, I chose the craft class…as I did enjoy that at one time. I guess the thing I need to say to you before we go on; is that when I took my first craft class, I still was pretty much down to nothing. I struggled to function or even shake my doctor’s hand.
Anyways…as I walked into my first craft class, the nurses were giving us a choice, as to what we would like to do. I will never forget this time, as I walked into a huge room with metal tables…tall stools and boxes and boxes of craft items.
As the nurse nicely walked me over to a table full of craft items; she began to ask me, as to what I would like to try and make. At the time, I just hung my head and didn’t even know if I had it in me, to do anything that day; but as she encouraged me and walked me over to the table, I began to get interested in decorating two mini brooms; that could eventually be hung on the wall at home. It wasn’t much of a project…just placing dried flowers and ribbons on these little brooms; but it was a humongous task at the time for me.
As I sat at the table on a tall stool, I just stared down on all that was before me for a few minutes…and then it seemed as if ideas were beginning to enter my thoughts. As each woven piece of ribbon went in place, along with all the beautiful dried flowers…something began to spark within me, for the very first time…in a long time. I actually began to feel a glimpse of light shine into the darkness, as I saw how I could still make something beautiful…and see it as something beautiful. Little did I know at the time; that this would be the beginning of a healing for me.
To this day, the brooms hang on my office wall…and when I feel as if life is taking me down again, I look at the brooms and visualize the moments, when beauty was truly brought forth, from the ashes of my despair.
A Bible verse that has meant so much to me is found in Isaiah 43:19…and we read… “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
One thing I would like to say to you today; is that God can truly take the most hopeless moments and make something new and beautiful from it. I think that the place where we go wrong; is when we start focusing so tightly on what is wrong; that these moments begin to convince us that they will never go right again.
Listen…I have walked through what I have seen to be the worst form of darkness in my life…a time when I felt as if I was actually walking through the pits of hell; but one thing I can tell you today…God didn’t leave me there. Instead, He made a promise to me; that He would stand on His word and bring me out of that darkness of despair…and today, I can say that even though I struggle with my health or other forms of trials…He has brought me through…and continues to bring me through each day.
As we close, may I encourage you to stop focusing on the darkness of a circumstance and begin anew, by searching for the light of God’s presence; because there is one thing I know without a doubt…and that is this; when we seek Him with all our hearts, we will find Him and He will come to us and unlock these prison cells of despair and set us free, just as He has done for me…praise Him!!
Have a great day…and I hope that you will come back tomorrow and help me celebrate life, as it will be my 61st birthday! Come and experience a God, who can breathe new life within you…just as He has done for me…Amen!
It’s Always & Only Because of Him…
Diane