Feelings that Clutter the Heart

​Hello everyone…and a very happy and blessed Monday to you all! It’s so good to be back with you today…to begin another new week together! I pray that as we spend this time together; that we will truly experience a special touch from God above…one that will help us to keep pressing on…no matter what we may be facing at this time…Amen!
Recently, I had moved a journal that I had been writing in, so I could use the cover and insert for something else. Little did I know that I had left some of the journal behind…that is, until I was viewing something else in the old journal cover yesterday.
As I began to read what had been left behind…I was so moved with what I had just read; that I thought that I would share some of it with you this morning…and maybe even more throughout the week.
Anyways…this part of the journal was written this year and some of it reads… “Blessings come but tears still fall. Why? Where did my heart go? Where are you Lord? I’m walking a dark and lonely path. Clouds are blacker than black, with not even a glimpse of light to be seen. Flowers that once grew along the path are now dead, with weeds growing along the way. Pain is making it difficult to walk down this path that is filled with ruts and obstacles. When is this path going to find its end?”
You know…it doesn’t matter who we are or what we go through; we all have times, when our circumstances make us feel, as if we are walking down a dark and lonely path. Moments such as these can make it even harder to press on, as Satan seems to work overtime, to take us away from the One we need the most.
As I was thinking back to what I had written in this journal; God began to lead me to Psalm 13, which reads… “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? 2) How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? 3) Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, 4) and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,” and my foes will rejoice when I fall. 5) But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. 6) I will sing the Lord’s praise,
for he has been good to me.”
One thing I have come to see about David in the Psalms; is that even though he was a king; he was just like us…one who struggled with weak moments in his life. Even though he faced these very challenging moments; he never held those weaknesses within himself; but rather, he poured out his heart, in a humble way before God…and as he poured out every hurtful feeling before God…he was then able to focus on God’s unfailing love and faithfulness in his life, which allowed him to turn from those hurtful feelings he once faced…to a heart of praise.
I’ve come to see and experience many things in my lifetime; but the one thing I have truly come to see; is that when we bottle up our feelings; then there is no room for God to work…and even more…it makes it difficult to rejoice through these times…and why; because our hearts are too cluttered with feelings that only keep the good things from entering the heart.
When I was a young girl, I was never given the chance to explain anything…or even stand up for myself. Later on, as the years passed…I became so bottled up with these hurtful feelings of the past; that a day did come, when everything erupted like a volcano. As I began to go into counseling, for what I was facing at that time; I did learn to let go of each hurtful moment…and even write down my feelings, which has been of great help to me.
I guess that what I’m trying to get across to you today; is that we should never hold onto any hurtful feelings…or even the feelings that stem from the circumstances we face. Holding tightly to these hurtful feelings, will only clutter the heart, while keeping the One we need the most on the outside of the heart.
You know…we are all going to face some challenging and hurtful moments in this life…and some of those feelings may attempt to take over the heart…and even make us wonder where God is; but one thing we must remember; is that these dark and lonely paths will never find their end, until we are willing to pour out our hearts before God. God is there for us…but the light of His presence can only shine it’s brightest and bring the dark and lonely paths to an end, when we are willing to let go of the feelings that are cluttering the heart.
Have a very blessed day…and I will see ya soon!
It’s Always & Only Because of Him…
Diane