October 18, 2019 | Good evening...

Good evening everyone! Tonight, I am struggling to write to you...because I'm in a lot of pain. In fact...I almost didn't write you this evening; but for some reason...something was tugging at my heart, as though I was supposed to write...so here I am.
I don't know about you...but there are days like today, when I feel as if I'm barely hanging on. The pain can override my thinking and attempt to control my mind completely; but Jesus is reminding me tonight; that these are the moments, when He is the closest to us.
You know...sometimes, I just don't understand, why so much pain is allowed into my life...that is, until I have written you and come to realize that He actually used these moments, in a greater way...to help someone else in need.
One thing I've come to see about chronic pain; is that no one can understand the depth of this pain, unless they have gone through it themselves. It's not like a headache...where 2 aspirin and a little rest will calm it down. This seems to be a pain that wants to take control; but tonight, I am being reminded of One, who truly understands pain...for He was beaten...bruised and broken...to practically nothing. He was also the One, who had a crown of thorns thrust into His skull...and a sword stuck into His side, while being hung on a cross, with spikes that had entered His hands and feet. 
Maybe I'm sitting here tonight...feeling in a world of my own...where no one really understands this kind of pain; but one thing I know...Jesus is in that world with me...and these are the moments, when He remains the closest to me.
Tonight...you too, may be going through pain...or illness...and you're just so tired of it. I understand; but even more...Jesus understands...and if you let Him...He will come and be there for you...just as He is right now for me. Just let go of all the hurt and fall into the arms of the One, who truly understands your pain...and one thing I know...He will be there for you!
As we close this day...I pray that Jesus will be there for us all...no matter what we're facing...and that we will truly find comfort in knowing that He does understand our deepest need. 
Have a good night...take care and I will hope to be with you again tomorrow!
Goodnight...and God bless!
It's Always & Only Because of Him...
​Diane