Today, as I sit here and look back on my life…I now see a life that has truly turned around for God…and that was only because of all the pain and deep heartache God allowed within my life.
You know…many times, we find it easy to blame God, when it comes to suffering…and believe me…I understand that because there was a time or two in the past, when I got angry at God over my situation; but once I began to slow down and see what God was doing through the difficult times, rather than focusing on the problem; that is when I began to see that He was gradually working through each painful moment in my life…to turn my life around and make me more like Him.
In Psalm 119:67, we read… “Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word.” When I look back on my life, I see a lady who was weak…had no confidence in herself and lived with a very low self-esteem. This lady followed in her father’s footsteps, by using anger to handle her problems.
Now…after lessons learned…and a very close relationship with God; I have been set free…and the lady that once was weak; is now strong in God…and the lady that once had no confidence, has come to see that she can find confidence, in just knowing God. Also…the lady with low self-esteem, has been strengthened, through a mighty and powerful God and has learned to let go of anger and lean on God instead.
No matter what we face in life; these weaknesses have a way of manipulating our lives, while attempting to drag us down a road that leads us further away from God. I have come to see that Satan is not only responsible for the “thorn of affliction” we bear; but he’s also responsible, for keeping these moments alive…and the only way I have found to counteract his ways; is to focus on God and what He’s up to, rather than the problem that Satan has afflicted me with…so just remember…it’s not what we endure; but what comes out of what we endure that matters!!