Hello everyone…I just want to begin by saying that it's so good to be back with you today! About a week ago, when I felt God leading me to take some time off, I was literally hanging by a thread. Each day became more of a struggle, as one health issue seemed to be leading me to another. In fact…I was to the place, where I wanted to just sit on the couch and quit…and just rest.
While I was off…God not only gave me some time to rest from the pain and chronic illnesses I was badly experiencing at the time; but He also began to work with something that I have struggled with for quite some time.
You know…sometimes we feel like we have overcome everything in our lives…never realizing that one little crumb was left behind…something that Satan could take hold of and use against us…and that little crumb was the struggle of not feeling loved. This life of mine has truly been a challenge, while living a past of pain, abuse and a dysfunctional home life…and I have come to see that moments such as these have a way of creeping up on us, especially during other moments of weakness.
As I sat on the couch, on my first day off…with tears running down my face…God saw those tears and He came and ministered personally to me…and He allowed me to see life for what it really is…not as a means of adding more pain into my life; but rather, that I may see my need for a real love…a real love for Him…one that would take me deep with Him and further away from an unreal love from the past.
I wonder how many times we forget that there is a love that can fill every empty void in our lives…and I wonder how many times we forget that there is a love that far surpasses the love of a human heart? For me…it seemed that I had heard the words "I love you"…and "I care" so many times…but you know what…they were only words…or they were words that taught me that love was shown through abuse or through a dysfunctional way. After experiencing moments such as these for many years of my life, I guess that there were times when I had placed God in that same category, with all those people who had let me down in my life…never really believing that His love could be real and genuine. In fact…with all that had been happening with my health recently…I began to feel that maybe He too had walked away and couldn't love me anymore.
You know…we fall…we fail; but these moments aren't meant to bring us lower; but rather, they are meant to lift us higher than where we once were; so we aren't down trodden; but rather, we rejoice…knowing that weakness has now been strengthened by God…just as He did for me about a week ago.
Maybe today, you are also feeling abandoned and tossed to the side, with only the troubles you are now facing; but may I encourage you by saying…that there is a God who will never give up on you…One who will remain and love you until the very end…One whose arms are opened wide…just waiting for you to enter them…and all you have to do is let go of everything, except for Him.
As I begin another new chapter in my life with this ministry and God, I pray that you will come back, as this will not only be a blog of encouragement…but also a blog of thoughts and feelings and experiences with God…one that can keep us all uplifted during these difficult times of life.
Have a very blessed day and I will see ya soon!
It's Always & Only Because of Him…
*Based on 2 Timothy 2…and Psalm 51
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