Good evening everyone! What a great day this has been! I sure hope that your day was a nice one too! This evening, as I've been sitting here alone with God; I began my evening, by reading Ephesians 2...and from there, I found myself thumbing through some older writings in my Bible; that God has given me over the years. You know...it doesn't matter how old these writings are...because the meaning that is contained within these words of wisdom, are still alive and filled with hope...a hope that can truly keep a person standing during the difficult times.
Anyways...as I was reading some of these older writings...I noticed one sticking out of the corner of my Bible. As I took it out to read it...the thoughts that were in this writing, took me back about 25 years...to a time when I had emotionally collapsed. At the time, I was dealing with a very painful past. Not only did the memory of sexual abuse surface; but I guess I can say that I was also going back to a time, when God was teaching me how to grow up all over again...only the right way this time...for I had been brought up in a very dysfunctional home life, as a young girl.
After being admitted to a hospital...I guess you can say that I just laid on the bed lifeless. Everything I once held so tightly too, as a means of surviving, had finally let go and I was now at rock bottom. In fact, there was not even an ounce of strength left, to shake the doctors hand that day. All I remember him saying to me was this... "It's alright Diane...I know you're hurting and we are going to help you...and one day soon, you will be able to shake my hand."
Through time, I came to see that God had allowed me to go down to nothing; so He could be my everything. One thing I have truly learned over the years; is that loss only brings gain...and the more loss I experienced from the past...only allowed me to gain more of Him.
Now, as I sit here today...I am completely free from the past...and all the deep heartache it led me to...for my Lord took hold of everything that had brought me low...and He exchanged it with something that could lift me back up to my feet. It was at one time, during that hospital say, when I felt His presence within me speaking these words... "Diane, I will bring you through this difficult time...I promise." Even though I didn't fully believe it at the time; I did come to see that He was a God of promise...and as you can see...He kept His word.
No matter what you walk through...never think of it as a waste or a total loss; for what God may be allowing you to lose out on now; is only that you might gain Him in a greater way...and may I say...when you experience God in this way...you will never be the same again; so never give up or become discouraged; because God always has a good ending, to what He allows within our lives.
Well...I guess this has been a night of reminiscing back in time. I never know what God has in store for me, when I spend these precious moments alone with Him; but tonight, I'm so glad that I've had this time, to look back and see how far He's brought me...and even more, how He has truly kept His word to me over the years.
I truly hope and pray that you will have a great night of rest...and that God will bless your tomorrow, with something brand new...from His heart to yours!
Goodnight...and God bless!
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