Hello everyone…well, it’s been another trying day with my health. Seems like I experience a day or two, when I can pretty much make it…and then it’s payback time it seems. One thing I have truly come to see over time; is that this is how Satan works. It seems that when we put our best foot forward; he is there…longing to push us back; but I will not stand for that…and this is why I continue to get up each day and function…no matter how I feel.
Last night…before going to bed, I had decided to try and get up a little earlier this morning. Keith was going to help me clean the oven…and so I thought that it would work out better for me, if I was to prep my dinner earlier and have it all ready to heat up in the evening; so this morning, I was definitely up with the chickens…making a casserole…and even some granola bars.
After I finished my time in the kitchen, I headed off to the bathroom to get around…and then I was back online with the ministry work. Once everything was caught up online, I decided to just slow down and take a little time off to rest my body. It seemed that as I began to relax…the tiredness became more real…and I was even struggling just to walk from my office to the bathroom. Moments like these can make a person feel very discouraged. Here I had accomplished so much in the past couple of days…and now I was struggling once more, to even enjoy the results of my labor.
As I’ve been sitting here this evening, with the lights dimmed...enjoying some quiet moments alone with God…I thank Him; that He is here to talk to…and to share the burdens of my heart with. He has truly been a good friend to me…and even though I don’t always enjoy life, in the way I long to…I am so thankful that He is there, to bring a comforting and sustaining love to me…one that keeps me strong; so I can continue to press on. You know…there was a time in my life, when I wouldn’t have thought this way. In fact…I was so buried in the moments of disability and the thoughts that only stemmed from depression; that there would have been no way for me to see Jesus, in the way I see Him now…which truly has allowed me to see all the sprouts of new growth that has taken place over the years…and tonight, I realize that this new growth is what has kept me pressing on. After watching Jesus bring me so far in my life …this has truly given me strength to easily trust Him, during these uncertain moments I’m walking through right now.
It was at a time in my life, when I lived the darkest and most dreary moments of the past; that God led me to a Bible verse in Isaiah 41:13…and we read… “For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” You know…it’s so easy to get caught up in what is going wrong; that we seem to bypass the One, who longs to take us by the hand and make it right. I’ll tell you…I needed these words tonight…and no matter what I have felt within my heart today…I know my God will be there, to hold me in arms of love…and to help me rest, as He prepares me for a brand new day…one, where I can start anew with Him. No matter what attempts to bring me down…I thank God, for His loving words of wisdom; that can lift the heart up and out of the muck and mire of despair.
No matter what you’re facing today…I understand…because my heart holds so many scars, along with my body…scars from so many broken moments of the past. Maybe we are going through two different things…but what affects us still can hurt deeply. May I encourage you, to not follow the path of despair; but instead…get back on the path that will keep you close to God…and instead of holding every hurtful moment within the heart…why not do as I’m doing tonight…and talk with God. Let it all go…every hurtful thought and feeling…and one thing I know…He will be there, to pick you back up to your feet…and help you to begin again.
I truly pray that your new day, will bring new and very special things to your heart; that you may truly experience Christ above all else in your life! Have a great day…take care and I will see ya soon!
Many…many blessings on your day!
It’s Always & Only Because of Him…
Diane K Hiltz Chamberlain