Hello everyone…and how are you doing today? It’s so good to be back with you once more! As some of you may have read on the blog…I took an extra day off because 2-3 days ago, I was really struggling with my health.
For those of you who aren’t familiar with me and the life that I have lived, for almost 61 years; I have been through multiple knee surgeries, due to a congenital problem from birth, along with counseling for sexual abuse and a dysfunctional home life…and I’ve also experienced much loss, including the loss of children. I guess that I can say that most of my life was taken away from me; that I may truly win Christ in my life and serve Him, as a means of encouraging others who are feeling hopeless.
Anyways…as a young girl, I pretty much sat on the sidelines of life, as the doctors restricted me more and more, from a lot of the activities that other kids my age were doing. In fact…it became a world of my own, where I continually lived out moments of loss…pain and deep heartache.
Well…lately my legs have been experiencing much more struggle…and the things I once used to do…even 2 years ago, have now become very difficult to do at times. It appears as though the legs and feet are deteriorating, along with some of the muscles. You know…when I was a young girl…life was difficult, with all I had to face; but never did I think that these problems could grow worse with time. For many years, I believed, with all that was within me; that God would heal and even make my legs into something brand new; but that never happened. It was one day; that I finally came to accept that God had a reason and purpose for it all; so instead of begging and begging Him to heal me, I just let go and began to trust Him, for one day at a time…that was until several days ago. I guess that I had just become so overwhelmed by the pain and tiredness…and even the struggle to walk; that my mind began to go back to my youth…thinking that more of my life was slowly leaving me, which is not always easy…especially since I love life so much.
I would say that it was this past Saturday, when the weight of everything began to make me feel as if I was struggling to keep my head above the troubled waters that were surrounding me at the time. In fact…it got so overwhelmingly out of control; that I could barely talk with God. It just seemed like I was climbing the steepest mountain, with a burden that was truly attempting to take me down to the ground for good.
I would say that it was Sunday evening, when I was able to finally get alone with God. For the longest time, I didn’t have any words to say…I just sat there, staring out the window. Even in the midst of such brokenness, it was God that began to speak through all the rubble that had fallen deep within my heart…and these were the words He gave me… “For every difficult climb we overcome; we gain even more, than what we had before the climb began.” Instantly, I began to see how God sees our brokenness, in comparison to ourselves…for when we see nothing good, through these darkened moments of our lives; He’s already seeing and experiencing the sunshine that awaits us, at the end of the storm. From that moment on, I began to see little glimpses of light…breaking through the shattered pieces that were lying deep within the heart…and with time; God did bring me back.
Later that evening, God led me to a few Bible verses in James 1:2-4…and we read… “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3) because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4) Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” You know…sometimes we just need a reminder, as to what can come out of these broken moments; for when we can know that there is a ray of sunshine at the end of the storm; then we will be able to once more lift our heads high and press on.
This past Saturday, I came to see what it was like to experience something that seemed so hopeless…as another part of my life is slowly leaving me; but on the other hand, I was shown by a powerful and loving God; that moments such as these aren’t meant for no reason at all; but rather, to serve a purpose…and the purpose behind these moments of loss and affliction within my own life, are meant to allow me to learn and grow even more, while becoming even stronger than before. In serving this purpose, I am now able to pass this same hope along to you and others in need.
You know…loss is not always an easy thing to deal with; but when we can see how we can gain so much more, than what the loss once meant to us; then we will be able to move on and serve the purpose, for which God created us to be.
No matter what you may be experiencing within your own life…never give up; but rather, seek God with all your heart…and one thing I know; He will exchange these broken moments in your life, with a purpose…one that can change your life…and the lives of others around you.
I truly pray right now that you will be able to see the good in this day…and that God would be very close to you in your day! Please take care and know that I am praying for you! See ya soon…and God bless!
It’s Always & Only Because of Him…
Diane K Hiltz Chamberlain