How many times have we convinced ourselves that a fall only makes us weaker? One day I was looking back on the journey I’ve traveled for so many years of my life. There’s been a lot of pain…surgeries…depression and counseling. Oh the times I have fallen…and you won’t believe how many scars I have to show for it. There was a time, when I felt that those scars and those falls only showed a defeated life. Many times, I felt like a dirty rag…dragged down an old gravel road and back; but more and more each day, I am seeing those falls, as an opportunity to get stronger…and those scars? Well…those scars now remind me of where God has been at work within my life…praise Him!
You know…for every fall and for every weak moment I’ve endured, I may have seen weakness peak it’s head up before me; but I’ve found that time changes things…as I begin to see less of the old self and more of the new self…and that’s why I call my life a journey…for along this rugged way, I have come to see new and wondrous things pop up within my life. Many times we miss out on what can come through a fall…and why? Because we are too focused on the fall itself and what it attempted to do to us.
This past Friday and Saturday, I had decided to strip some wallpaper in my kitchen…between my counter tops and the lower part of my cupboards. I have to admit…I was a little hesitant to do this project, due to all the pain that I have been experiencing lately; but then I knew that if I invited God into the project; then I could do it…so I did.
Now…I’d like to say that everything is ready and prepped for the new wallpaper, which should arrive on Wednesday; but for the past two days, I have really paid the price…as I was in a huge amount of pain. I figured that this was a pay back from evil, for trusting God and succeeding.
These times aren’t always easy for me to overcome; but I can see how the strength of Christ becomes more evident through these trying times in my life. Some, who live a difficult life like me, may give in and never try; but these are the moments that keep nudging me forward in life…and as I move one more step ahead…a new strength begins to enter me…to carry me through other difficult days that may arise.
One thing I have truly learned over 50 years of pain, heartache and a tough journey; is to let go of what the fall may have attempted to do to my life. We must remember that it’s Satan’s aim for us to focus on the fall…and where it could have taken us because he knows that once we take hold of that bait; that he is free to drag us further into despair.
Rather than focusing on what took place during a fall…and how it could even make us weaker than what we already are; we need to start focusing on what God has planned…to make us stronger through the fall. When we can truly come to see how a fall can strengthen us, rather than weaken us; that is when we will have a deeper desire to continue on…no matter how bad the fall seemed to be.
It’s Always & Only Because of Him…
Diane K Hiltz Chamberlain